My Pray

God, I'm thankful with you, for all the blessings that you give me always, and for all the time you gave it to me, for all what you have done with me and my family, and all the people that most I love, thank you for give me this opportunity to stay in front of you.
I want to begin letting you know that Apologize myself for all the times that I've been bad girl, for not to be obedient to your words, for listen other people instead of you.
God I cannot understand so many things in life, and there are others that i cannot explain, I know you made all of us with one purpose and you gave us all the opportunities to learn our purpose in life, I though I found the purpose of my life, but I got lost in the middle of this world, and feel so ashamed about for all what i've done, God for overall I wanna say SORRY . for letting the world govern in my heart.
God today I come to you to ask for forgiveness , because I cannot live in this world any longer, is just too much for me, people doesn't have feelings, and this is where i don't have peace, I know i just can find peace in you, God lately i've been passing trough too many things that remind me that you are the only one can make things easy here, God can you come today and hold my hand and keep me wrapped in your arms and let me sleep for a while there, forgive me God for all what's i've done and let me go back where I belong, help me the fight that i've been trough, don't let me apart from your side, is been long time that I cannot see you and today i came just to say Help me and don't let my Faith disappear.
My Faith is in You God, ...
In the Name of Jesus
Amen.

Simple Friend Vs. Real FRIEND!!!!

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

Updating!!!!

After 2 years and 3 months out of my country, I realized that so many things change back home, I'm still not back there but I was wondering how my life will be back home, so I begin to read some news and trying to keep in contact with my friends, so I realized most of my friends already got married, some of them move to other cities, others just immigrate another country like me study reason, wondering what is left, even my house is not where i used to live, even knew about it before to come here, but i've never seen my actual house, and my family told they already make new construction so??? wonder how it looks!!!!,
I will be back to new house, with new people, hopefully i will meet my friends, and don't know if i can assimilate the food ... just wondering now .
About my country .. it changed a lot since i left it , too many political problems, not just internal problems, with another country as well, and looking forward for new constitution, OMG ... I will be back to a new life.. not more the old one,
Everything changes, and changes can make us better ,
As I learned at church, just WAITING IN GOD to make better my life.

Come back for this Christmas ...

You are away from your friends,
from your land and from your home
and you feel pain, pain  in your soul,
because you cannot stop thinking.

tonight when you cannot  
stop remembering that memories
I want you to know that here at my table,
I have a place for you.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

You might remember that your mother
or a child is not here whit you
I want you to know that on this night,
they will accompany you.

Do not go just for these streets,
feeling disturbed and without any orientation,
come with us  to our side
and try to smile.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

La Iglesia, como parte Fundamental de mi vida

Luego de algunas semanas sin poder ir a la Iglesia por mi vida caotica, me empeze a sentir un poco vacia, como que no habria comido hace tiempo, es un vacio que no se llena con pan, no se llena manteniendose ocupada, o leendo libros, es un vacio que me derrumba y me pone de rodillas, y me recuerda que hay alguien poderoso ahi arriba que esta esperando por mi, se que he dejado que mis suenhos de ser alguien o mis suenhos de terminar mis estudios han hecho que mi vida ponga como prioridad estar en casa escribiendo una tesis interminable , y olvidarme de aquel que nunca me falla.

Desperte lo mas temprano que pude y aun asi era tarde para ir a la Iglesia, pero entendi que no es tarde para encontrarme con mi Dios, decidi orar, cantar algunas canciones, y leer la palabra (Santiago 1:5 por recomendacion de mi papa) solo espero que Dios me ayude a terminar mi via crucis y pueda asistir pronto a la Iglesia que me es de mucha falta. 

To my DOST!!!

These small hours....

With tears on my face, with all the memories that i got,

If you just can understand how difficult is to leave this place

With all my heart in front of you, With all what i got until now

How difficult is this feeling, that just make me feel so depress

With all the depression that carries my weak soul

How can I explain you that all what i need is just to be protected

These small hours, that still remain, makes this soul more weak 

How much is remaining ?? I even don't know yet

But just it hurts I will not see you anymore again

Don't you know that is fucking difficult to leave for me

All what i lived, All what I've been trough, All what I feel

Tears, just Tears .. and more Tears 

They don't know how to speak your language to make you understand

All what i need is smile by your side in these small hours

These small hours , still remain ... small hours

My life here was the best experience I ever had .....

These fucking small hours that make me feel alone ...

You standing beside me ... me cannot say how much I care for you

You the one that makes me smile everyday

Me cannot offer any help to make you smile

This fucking depression .. just to know that I'm leaving soon

Fuck!!!!! Why I have to leave my friends behind?????

Why??? Why??

Every moment that I lived with you ... comes to my mind

remind me how much I enjoy being with YOU!!!!

Friends the most wonderful Family I had being alone in foreign country

Why I'm so sensitive to this???

These small hours ...... just wanna smile ... with my little wonders ..

be with you ... and forget about future

and cherish every moment that i lived with you ...

Fuck!!! wanna forget this depression ... that just makes me think that i won't see you anymore again ....

Let me smile .. and don't bring anymore these tears .. 

My little wonders .... time to leave ... but still some hours to live .