My Pray

God, I'm thankful with you, for all the blessings that you give me always, and for all the time you gave it to me, for all what you have done with me and my family, and all the people that most I love, thank you for give me this opportunity to stay in front of you.
I want to begin letting you know that Apologize myself for all the times that I've been bad girl, for not to be obedient to your words, for listen other people instead of you.
God I cannot understand so many things in life, and there are others that i cannot explain, I know you made all of us with one purpose and you gave us all the opportunities to learn our purpose in life, I though I found the purpose of my life, but I got lost in the middle of this world, and feel so ashamed about for all what i've done, God for overall I wanna say SORRY . for letting the world govern in my heart.
God today I come to you to ask for forgiveness , because I cannot live in this world any longer, is just too much for me, people doesn't have feelings, and this is where i don't have peace, I know i just can find peace in you, God lately i've been passing trough too many things that remind me that you are the only one can make things easy here, God can you come today and hold my hand and keep me wrapped in your arms and let me sleep for a while there, forgive me God for all what's i've done and let me go back where I belong, help me the fight that i've been trough, don't let me apart from your side, is been long time that I cannot see you and today i came just to say Help me and don't let my Faith disappear.
My Faith is in You God, ...
In the Name of Jesus
Amen.

Simple Friend Vs. Real FRIEND!!!!

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

Updating!!!!

After 2 years and 3 months out of my country, I realized that so many things change back home, I'm still not back there but I was wondering how my life will be back home, so I begin to read some news and trying to keep in contact with my friends, so I realized most of my friends already got married, some of them move to other cities, others just immigrate another country like me study reason, wondering what is left, even my house is not where i used to live, even knew about it before to come here, but i've never seen my actual house, and my family told they already make new construction so??? wonder how it looks!!!!,
I will be back to new house, with new people, hopefully i will meet my friends, and don't know if i can assimilate the food ... just wondering now .
About my country .. it changed a lot since i left it , too many political problems, not just internal problems, with another country as well, and looking forward for new constitution, OMG ... I will be back to a new life.. not more the old one,
Everything changes, and changes can make us better ,
As I learned at church, just WAITING IN GOD to make better my life.

Come back for this Christmas ...

You are away from your friends,
from your land and from your home
and you feel pain, pain  in your soul,
because you cannot stop thinking.

tonight when you cannot  
stop remembering that memories
I want you to know that here at my table,
I have a place for you.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

You might remember that your mother
or a child is not here whit you
I want you to know that on this night,
they will accompany you.

Do not go just for these streets,
feeling disturbed and without any orientation,
come with us  to our side
and try to smile.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

For that and many other things,
come to my house this Christmas.

La Iglesia, como parte Fundamental de mi vida

Luego de algunas semanas sin poder ir a la Iglesia por mi vida caotica, me empeze a sentir un poco vacia, como que no habria comido hace tiempo, es un vacio que no se llena con pan, no se llena manteniendose ocupada, o leendo libros, es un vacio que me derrumba y me pone de rodillas, y me recuerda que hay alguien poderoso ahi arriba que esta esperando por mi, se que he dejado que mis suenhos de ser alguien o mis suenhos de terminar mis estudios han hecho que mi vida ponga como prioridad estar en casa escribiendo una tesis interminable , y olvidarme de aquel que nunca me falla.

Desperte lo mas temprano que pude y aun asi era tarde para ir a la Iglesia, pero entendi que no es tarde para encontrarme con mi Dios, decidi orar, cantar algunas canciones, y leer la palabra (Santiago 1:5 por recomendacion de mi papa) solo espero que Dios me ayude a terminar mi via crucis y pueda asistir pronto a la Iglesia que me es de mucha falta. 

To my DOST!!!

These small hours....

With tears on my face, with all the memories that i got,

If you just can understand how difficult is to leave this place

With all my heart in front of you, With all what i got until now

How difficult is this feeling, that just make me feel so depress

With all the depression that carries my weak soul

How can I explain you that all what i need is just to be protected

These small hours, that still remain, makes this soul more weak 

How much is remaining ?? I even don't know yet

But just it hurts I will not see you anymore again

Don't you know that is fucking difficult to leave for me

All what i lived, All what I've been trough, All what I feel

Tears, just Tears .. and more Tears 

They don't know how to speak your language to make you understand

All what i need is smile by your side in these small hours

These small hours , still remain ... small hours

My life here was the best experience I ever had .....

These fucking small hours that make me feel alone ...

You standing beside me ... me cannot say how much I care for you

You the one that makes me smile everyday

Me cannot offer any help to make you smile

This fucking depression .. just to know that I'm leaving soon

Fuck!!!!! Why I have to leave my friends behind?????

Why??? Why??

Every moment that I lived with you ... comes to my mind

remind me how much I enjoy being with YOU!!!!

Friends the most wonderful Family I had being alone in foreign country

Why I'm so sensitive to this???

These small hours ...... just wanna smile ... with my little wonders ..

be with you ... and forget about future

and cherish every moment that i lived with you ...

Fuck!!! wanna forget this depression ... that just makes me think that i won't see you anymore again ....

Let me smile .. and don't bring anymore these tears .. 

My little wonders .... time to leave ... but still some hours to live . 

Yaroon Dosti

Movie: Rockford
Singer: KK
Music: Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy

Yaroon Dosti Video

Yaaron Dosti, Badi Hi Haseen Hai
Folks, friendship is something very beautiful
Yeh na ho toh kya phir, bolo yeh zindagi hai
Life sums up to nothing when void of friendship
Koi to ho raazdaar
Let someone be your secretkeeper,
Begaraz Tera Ho Yaar
Without hesitation let them be your buddies
Koi To Ho Raazdaar

Yaaron Mohabbat Hi Toh Bandgi Hai
Friends, love is just another way to worship the Almighty
Yeh Na Ho To Kya Phir, Bolo Yeh Zindagi Hai
What would life be without any love ?
Koi To Dilbar Ho Yaar, Jisko Tujhse Ho Pyar
Somebody has to be your loved one, whom you adore the most
Koi To Dilbar Ho Yaar

Teri Har ek Buraai Pe, Daante woh Dost
Your friend scolds you for every mistake of yours
Gham ki Ho dhoop toh saaya bane tera woh dost
If your life is sunny with gloom, your friend becomes thy shade
Naache Bhi Vo Teri Khushi Mein
He'll celebrate your happiness too

(Yaaron Dosti Badi Hi Haseen Hai)

Tan mann Kare.. tum pe fida... mehboob woh
Your loved one would dedicate his heart & soul to you
Palkon Pe Jo Rakhe Tujhe... Mehboob woh
He would keep you safe on his eyelashes
Jiski wafa Tere Liye Ho
His loyalty would always remain for you

(Yaaron mohabbat)

Dosti

Dosti, means so many things for me, being there for your dost is the most special thing that it can be in this life, in the last days i experiment so many things from my doston, is not just be there for fun, or in happy moments, is about to be there when they need you the most, and extend your hand even when they don't know what to do, Dosti means stay there when the darkest moment of your life doesn't allow you to live, is stay there when the sunrise is coming up to celebrate, Dosti a powerful word that i really cannot change for anything, arrey dost i learn a lot of from you, always saying the true and trying to make me understand how to live this hard life, and how to improve my life for my own benefit, is not just about to hang out and talk no sense stuff, is give support in good and bad moments, is fight for the one that is real dost, even if that person doesn't know how much it means for you.

Dosti!!!!, still remember how many doston i got in life, and how many of them show real dosti, and Dosti for me means Life ... because without my Dost i think this life doesn't have any sense, fighting everyday for stupid stuff, having fun around when we need to celebrate, stay there and give support when the dark night comes.

May God Bless you dear Dost.

Because for me Dosti never have end, and it will be forever.

On my Knees!!!

This morning i woke up early just to prepare myself for sunday worship service, it was my turn as  a music leader, well as usual i begin to select some songs that i used to choose and suddenly came to mind this song from Jaci Velasquez untitled  "On my Knees", i couldn't believe it, i've been listen so long time ago this song but i never paid attention to the lyrics, then when i found the lyrics and  begin to check if it goes correctly with the song, i couldn't believe it ... is so amazing, what it says "See I don't know How, but there is power when I'm on my knees"  and for so long i forgot how it feels talk with God ... when I'm on my knees, and i remember my parents when i was in undergraduate program they used to tell me ask God but on your knees, and even once I advice to someone .. just talk with God on your knees, and well for so long haven't  do it well at my lab even sometimes i feel such a depression that well .. i think with so many stuff over me i recognize i begin to forget about to talk with God and ask ... on my Knees ... well now after this long day i think it was a kind of way from God to show me that really need to talk with him .... because just On my  Knees everything will function ... 100% sure that there is power when i'm on my knees!!!.

When all your knowledge is not enough!!!!!

Recently, I've been attending an International Symposium about Environmental Biotechnology, having a really good topics to be discussed, Bio Energy and Bio Remediation, some how both of them are really important around world now days, well the event was hold it in English, and of course as foreigner I feel kind of shy about my poor english, and as same time expect too much about it. 

I remember once one of my professor in undergraduate program told me "is not about how much you know, is about how much you can make understand people about your product" , well I just can say is true, after to listen people with highest degree from Singapore, Poland, Japan, China, Taiwan, i just can say the purpose of a symposium is make discussion about up and downs in our research and find solution, is kind of sharing ideas , and if we just wanna show our knowledge better publish a paper and be happy and proud about it.

After too long days, sharing with people that english is not their tongue mother, as well me, I ask myself  it was really constructive for me????,  the answer is Yes, it was, because i got a lesson about  that what really matters is not how much english you know , or how much knowledge you have about certain topic, or how much advance technology you have in your laboratory, not at all .. research is not about all this, i understand that if you wanna show all the people that you are really smart  you must teach them in their level, because the most complicated you make it , the most difficult that can be discussed.

And yes, my lab-mates also learn something, they must talk to me everyday in english, and stop doing chinese mimics communication,  yes, is funny but is true.

After at all , Is not how bad it was, is about that sometimes people just like to show the best they are, and just  they forgot that they were talking with students and as students we still in process to learn, as the diamond we still trying to be polished. 

 

Having fun being Master Degree Student

Have you ever imagine being a student is too much fun??? have you ever feel like being student is a kind of funny job??? have you ever imagine how much time you spend at school than home??? So many questions are rounding my mind, actually i cannot answer all of them, and is too many questions that everyday i ask myself, indeed, being a student is more that just studies, yes, when you are student at primary school, what did you normally like??? (don't lie) i can read in your eyes, yes i agree with you, go school it was the best time to talk with your friends, and make this kind of cute friends, yes and just talk with them and the most wonderful moment is when you have to go for the break time and just play and play whatever it comes to your mind just play and spend the 15 minutes just playing, then just go back home, i even don't remember if i was studying that hard, when you go junior high school, what you did??? i'm sure that you were having your first crush , some girls were begining to grow up and show up their .. Feminine side, and Boys hhmm i'm sure they were still in their infancy, enjoying the soccer game with friends, while girls trying to get attention from High school boys, yes when you are in High School I'm sure you were begining to have your firs Boy/Girl friend, what days!!! no one really took seriously studies , then what else you did? hhmm some of us we begin to have our first troubles at home, or some of us where beginning to just get dumb hahaha!!!!, ok until high school we live with our friends . .. from infancy and .. some new friends, some left us for other schools, most of them were living nearby our houses, hhmm nice kind of friendship and of course we were having fun , then suddenly we have to go University, such a big step in our life!!!, well actually what i experience is just hhmm i didn't care about studies, (i'm lying of course) yes here is the point where we begin to take seriously our studies, at least in my case is what it happened, we begin to have new friends, hang out with them, of course we already been in parties but not this kind of parties, such awesome for us, but with the only difference that we begin to take responsibility about our own life, well is in the middle of our career when we begin to equilibrate social life, with study life plus sentimental life, because is in this time when we begin to figure it out who will be the one for us, is not more games, no more dolls, no more plastic cars, no more hhmm mummy following us, ok until this point, we begin to take seriously most of the things, then hhmm some of us we decide to continue our studies, if go university is big step, go for Master Degree is really too much (at least in my background is consider Bigger step) but hahahah .. yes i still taking seriously my studies, i'm still working hard, but i cannot decline a invitation to have fun with friends, and i begin to understand that Master is not another step in your career is just simple an application of what you already know, and just make strong all the basics part of what you've already learned, not just at college, what you've learned at school, at home, at street, all of them together, you should know how to have fun without interfering with any of the other aspects that can affect you studies, or social, or personal life, surprisingly , i've just learned how to do all of that, i had a lot fun around in all my master degree but i never involved my studies, so what i can say, hhmm Master Degree is more Fun if you just can equilibrate all your life, and i wonder how is going to be PhD .. imagine?? if i decide to go for PhD i cannot imagine where i'm going to ended up, but for all over the things, I'm really thankful to the one that gave me this life and make me stronger to understand that no matter what i'm must learn to equilibrate my life, and that is how to live life .. hmmm fun is all around just you have to get the chance to don't disturb the equilibrium in your life.
Gotta Go ... Experiment running and .. dinner with friends waiting ..

P.S.
yes the one that i'm talking about is there .. over us .. watching us .. GOD.

STARTING TODAY

I AWOKE
AND FINALLY THE LIGHT APPEARED
I OPENED MY VOICE AND YOU WERE THERE
OPEN TO MY WISHES
LOOK AT ME
I AM THE PROOF OF YOUR LOVE
I AM THE ONE THAT MADE YOU WAIT
FOR ALL THIS TIME
FROM THIS VERY MOMENT
THE WORLD BELONGS TO US ALONE
AND OUR LIVES WILL BEGIN STARTING TODAY,
STARTING TODAY.
YOU CARRY ME IN YOU
I'LL CARRY YOU IN ME
YOU'LL BE THE INTUITION
THAT WRITES MY STORY STARTING TODAY.
CARE FOR ME
YOU'LL BE THE ESSENCE OF MY VOICE
IN MY GESTURES YOU WILL SEE
YOUR PASSION AND YOUR STRENGTH
LOVE ME
AND I WILL ABSORB YOUR GLOW
I'LL EVEN DAZZLE THE SUN
YOUR LIGHT WILL SHINE THROUGH ME
FROM THIS VERY MOMENT
THE WORLD BELONGS TO US ALONE
AND OUR LIVES WILL BEGIN STARTING TODAY,
STARTING TODAY.
YOU CARRY ME IN YOU
I'LL CARRY YOU IN ME
YOU'LL BE THE INTUITION
THAT WRITES MY STORY STARTING TODAY.

Hold on for a minute!!!!

I've been rushing for long time and trying just to full fill my dreams, and becoming a kind of robot person, without thinking,  without feelings, without anything, and one day i just stop all my life, yes , i decide to sit and make kind of reflexion, because suddenly i realize something is missing, something is wrong, what is it???, my life was becoming time wasted, all what i did is just nothing comparing with all what i left behind, and i ask myself if i'm happy with all around me, NO, I'm not happy at all.

All what i had one day is missing, my family, i just have a simple picture of my family, and in my memories is difficult for me remember their faces, because also they told me that they change too much, but cannot forget what they feel for me, that day i remember I was at home, Mama was scolding me just to make me wake up at 6 AM, and Papa was shouting my name, i remember how i used to fight with my Brother, and how difficult was to live with Mama everyday with up and downs in her difficult mood, but as all Mothers lovely taking care of me always, i used to play whit Father almost everyday, good memories, when just got crazy and begging to sing and dance  or simple me sitting watching TV, i really forget how does it feel watch TV!!!!, i used to arrive late home and Mama was always there waiting with my Lunch-Dinner because i couldn't stop for lunch at home , and it felt so good just to lye down my head in my old pillow ... and be wrapped by my parents just to have good sleep and enjoy nighttime  like a baby , i think in every word is falling more than one tear, yes tears, because all the love that i feel for my Family is  too much that my heart is not enough to contain it, and has to fall down in tears.

I miss to be just me, shy and scared, I miss to be crazy and happy at home, I miss to get anger easily, I miss to be.... , like everything every day is a new change in life.

I would like to go back home, and just be there, but i know for sure i will also miss this new life, so ZHEMEBAN!!! (what to do in chinese) can i have both of them together???? i guess as my father used to advice me, when i will grow old and old ... i will realize one day that i'm taking my own decisions, and it's in me the way to live my life, so i think for minute have to old on my busy life, and care for people like my family, and well just share with them like my new life, be happy and enjoy everyday, and if the storm and dark moments come, just be  a support in my family.

Few months more I will take a break and really promise I wanna enjoy with my family , If you read this message, please just pray for me so i can make it home soon.

The Little Girl in TW

When friendship becomes to be part of the world

I traveled around 40 hours from Bolivia to Taiwan, yeah Taiwan Do you know where is it?? , yeah you won't believe me, but i knew it , well that is not the point, i never imagine that i will meet a lot of foreigners, this if funny i didn't know that Phillipines is an island, and you know what ... my first friends are from Phillipines ... or as i call them FILIPINOS ... yeaahh they are so great so nice people, cannot believe it, at first tought it will be great, but it was better than that, is like no matter what no matter where, i always can count with them, well ... let's continue the story then i met i Turkish Boy ... yeah he is Muslim i never tought to meet someone different from Baptist Christian or Catolic ... i'm still surprised about it, he is really kind of person that knows how to care about the people, he and my friend Jedhan from Phillippines made a really good and closer relation, same as me with them, we used to go at 2 o 3 am to lake side just to enjoy the summer night chatting about ..... no sense themes .. it was nice, even we went to have a awesome adventure .. ... to Pig Pen one of the Diskos here in Taichung (city where i live actually) well, i said awesome because it was before my deadline of Virology Paper presentation, is not funny, is incredible that after that night i could work next day, and i got a good score for it, well after that we had i kind of party in our university, guess what? ... yeah i begin to know more people, and what i tought about other it was not true, all people around the world likes to have fun, and have friends, they like to learn about other cultures, well after that, the new students arrive and i begin to help some of them , i love to do it, we begin to have a kind of good friendship, and begin to get closer, there was this night when was my filipino friend birthday and we just met with the other foreigners, until that time .. i used to go out just with Filipinos, i was afraid to meet the others, but well anyway i began to meet the new people, and it was like summer time is really nice to get crazy and have fun all around, yeaahh ... but time to study is coming back ... so i got closer to the new ones, and .. i just begin to get closer with an indian boy , he is so great and so cool, yeaahh ... hey he is hindi religion, can you believe it ... until now i meet catolics, muslim, hindi, budisth .. people .. come on ... i used to think that they are weird, but no .. they are not ... i begin to have good relationship with all of this people ... just because wanna make it clear, ... Joan, Joji and Jedhan are the best Filipinos ever that i met in my life, and i'm so thankful that i can count with them whenever i need support and need to laugh . Sinan is a really handsome guy from Turkey that knows how to care about people and knows when people need some kind of relax, Amit is yeah a different kind of Indian, the one that likes to enjoy life without bother other people, he really doesn't mind the life of others, but he likes to make the others feel confortable, and what i really like from him, that he will always tell you the true about yourself, and well ... i met this crazy girl from Romania .. guess !!!! She is completely the same as Amit, they have same kind of thoughts ...same kind of feelings, you know sometimes i just sit with Amit to listen him, after days ...i do the same ... with Atena .. and is same story .. is kind of funny but also both of them are Cute .. Skinny ... Funny and are the best good Buddies that you can get in the world, as well have more friends from other countries ... i'm just mentioning .. the ones that make a big change in my life ...

Friendship ... is all around the world, and God gave it to me the oportunity to share wich many kind of people .. and all this people remind me that i'm not alone, that friends wherever you go can be a family, a really good family ..

Have friends at home .. in my beautiful Bolivia ... have friends from Bolivia that actually they are living in Spain, Sweeden, Germany, France ... .. and last have friends in Taiwan that come from all around the world ...

I'm not just to get a Title in Taiwan.... I GOT THE BEST FAMILY EVER IN MY LIFE

Love all of you guys ..

De regreso al verdadero Amor

Amor, el mundo entero esta plagado de el, cada cancion, cada novela, cada libro, la television, las peliculas, todo lo que nos rodea esta plagado de esta palabra AMOR, pero como es posible que algo tan esencial para nosotros, que ha venido de tiempos tan antiguos, es algo en lo que hemos fallado constantemente , matrimonios fallidos, parejas desechas, mujeres u hombres amargados por fracasos amorosos, Cual es el verdadero AMOR??? Lo has sentido??, Que es lo que realmente quiere Dios para nosotros??, Efesios 5 :1-2 nos habla de ANDAR en AMOR como DIOS nos AMA.

Rob Bell (Nooma) menciona la palabra RAYA (del hebreo) que significa una conexion intima, una amistad verdadera sincera, cuando podes decir a el o ella todo acerca de tu vida, y es algo fundamental para una relacion, la base de una relacion esta fundamentada en la amistad verdadera, sincera. AHAVA es una afeccion profunda, donde tu mente y tu corazon estan totalmente liderados por una emocion que te lleva a un compromiso con esa persona, cuando tu ser desea ser parte de esa persona, cuando hay un verdadero compromiso con el o ella, cuando realmente crees que esa amistad que han tenido lleva como resultado es tener esa conexion de compromiso, que culminara con un DOD que implica el verdadero amor culminando con una verdadera union , lo mas profundo y sagrado, cuando dos llegan a ser uno, cada uno de estos es una pequenha llama de fuego , que juntas producen una mas grande, que hay sobre las parejas actuales que deciden solo tener DOD (sexo) disfrutan apenas de una pequenha llama de fuego, no experimentando asi la completa llama denominada Amor, Dios NO nos ha creado solo para disfrutar parte del Amor, Dios nos ha dado la oportunidad de disfrutar de mucho mas, pero por otro lado las personas que estan casadas que tienen el AHAVA ese compromiso, pero no son amigos lo han olvidado, no comparten no tienen esa comunicacion, conllevando a no tener sexo, que clase de Amor es???, Pregunta : Cuanto es lo minimo requerido de patas para soportar una silla??? Hemos sido creados para tener y vivir un Amor completo no solo parte de ello.

Chip Ingram autor de Love, Sex and lasting Relationships (Amor, Sexo y relaciones duraderas) haciendo un analisis profundo de lo que vive actualmente la iglesia hoy en dia, cuando hollywood se introdujo en nuestras vidas, cuando nos mostro que el amor se trata en encontrar a la persona correcta, en la cual fijaremos nuestros suenhos e ideales, con la enamoraremos y si es que cometemos errores, o simplemente nos equivocamos en escoger la pareja, podemos empezar de nuevo y buscar otra persona correcta, y ahi vamos rotando en la vida tratando de encontrar ese amor verdadero. Pregunta: Como podemos hacer feliz a alguien si nosotros por si mismos no somos felices???. Por que seguir idealizando a nuestra futura pareja , porque no cambiar y llegar a ser ese persona correcta y llegar a estar completos una vez que estemos completos podremos lograr tener una relacion, sin tener que fijar nuestros suenhos o metas en esa persona, si no fijarlos en Dios como pareja , viviendo en Amor y andando en el Amor que Dios nos ha dado, y si es que existiera un error, tratar de solucionarlo como pareja que somos.

EL mundo nos ha corrompido tanto que no nos hemos dado cuenta que hemos vivido tan lejos de ese verdadero Amor, el Verdadero Amor que Dios ha planeado para Nosotros.